Hold on for one second, can we all just acknowledge that some random Facebook App
has deemed my countenance most closely resembling that of Lara Croft in Tomb Raider?
Compared to…Mickey Mouse, I guess?
I don’t care, I’ll take it.
Please, and Thank you. 🙂
Now that we’ve dealt with housekeeping matters most pressing, I’ll let you know what I’ve been doing, and that is not been preparing much new *quality* blog material unless you count my diatribe on Running!
In the last 19 months or so, the subject matter of my writing has remained largely the same: organic gardening, fitness, running, eating disorders and mental health. When I first began publicly sharing my life, the ratio of posts devoted to gardening and fitness was much more balanced.
Just as I explained in MY ECOTONE, the blog was launched to document my out-of-the-box gardening activities. That wasn’t enough, so I began writing EXACTLY what I’ve been living. It was real, raw, and mortifying.
It’s was also self-indulgent and woe-is-me. Sorry about that.
Yes, my posts can seem redundant. My subject matter can be tedious, monotonous, repetitive, obsessive, what-have-you. You know why? Because not every reader has been following from Day One, and I have a message.
If I were pressed to state two goals I had for this blog, I’d have to say 1.) Personal Catharsis, 2.) Public Awareness.
Writing privately is therapeutic. Writing publicly–especially about the ugly, shameful, humiliating, terror in my brain, my head and my life is surprisingly restorative.
I’m not looking to be told I am brave, strong or virtuous for sharing unattractive and embarrassing details. I’m weak and sick. I’ve done such incredible damage to myself and much more to my family. I’m that nasty fault line under my parents’ and siblings’ homes. The structural damage reaches it’s treacherous, spiky thorns across the country, insidious, cracking foundations, separating lives and relationships.
*There I go again.*
Not everyone has the time for (or interest in) reading every last Mental Health or Eating Disorder Related post in chronological order. I don’t even want to do that. Some of my posts are horrifyingly self-indulgent, narcissistic and just plain garbage.
With that being said, the Blog is still Here. I am still writing and am still passionate about the message.
But, for the heavier writing about mental health and eating disorders, I am realizing a blog is simply too disjointed a forum for the subject matter.
I want to write on this Comprehensively, Provocatively, and Articulately. Hence, the project.
So, what I have been up to recently, besides deluding myself into thinking that Angelina and I might share some facial features?
Running (about 3-4 times a week).
Gardening (Yep, it’s already started…I planted a new Pomegranate Tree today and I am in the process of transplanting 9 (Little) FIG TREES).
So, coming up, you will be seeing a great deal of gardening and fitness related posts, with some light discussion on mental health issues. 🙂
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